God answers prayer

Wow, its been awhile. Tonight, I kind of have a lot on my mind and I figured if I'm able to organize my thoughts I could post, so sorry if this is a little all over the board.

I've been on one heck of an emotional roller coaster lately, today especially. I got to see someone who mean the world to me for the first time in awhile. Our lives have gone down two separate paths and its hard watching someone you consider family, in every sense of the word, leave your life. I am thankful for the new path God has placed me on, I am constantly learning to be content where I am and some of the greatest lessons I've learned have come from this. I am also so thankful for the times when I do get to see her. Not seeing her as often has caused some serious issues for me though, asking myself questions like, what did I do wrong? Wasn't our friendship worth fighting for? Why would God tear apart something so good? I am now seeing the answers to these questions I have cried out to God.  I need to be still and look for Him above all else.

I have also been very concerned about what my future will be. The teen years are such a big part of figuring out who you are and what you want to be. Figuring this out brought so much stress to me that I felt I shouldn't even celebrate my 16th birthday since I didnt have these answers. I still dont have these answers but I see God opening and closing doors that will show me exactly where He wants me to go.

Lastly, one of my goals in life is to be an encouragement to everyone around me. Someone others girls can look up to, someone who leads people in their walks and shows them what it means to be a follower of Jesus. I was feeling down, feeling like I hadnt been doing a good job of that as I moped around because of past events. I realized, I need to choose joy, I need to put aside my feelings and get over my selfish wants and be joyful despite my hurt. I am most encouraged when I am encouraging. As I have gotten back to reaching out to people I have realized how silly I was to throw a pity party for myself when deep down I knew people needed to see Jesus in me. Now that I've gotten back to that I am so happy and I love knowing I can be a safe place for my friends.